The Incredible Mangoes

so updates. lets see.

doggie and i decided to delete ourselves from facebook. and we did. and the first person to reactivate would be a loser. that loser would be me, since i logged back in yesterday. man i dont know what people say, i love facebook.

what the fuck is wrong with the L word. HELENA AND DYLAN are you kidding me. after shane and jenny. what the fuck are they trying to do. its just disgusting.

Purple Haze now hates me, with passion. like really. she has become a hardcore uber bitch woman, who refuses to have anything to do with me besides the projects we are working on. all i want to do is love yaar. why must there be so much anger and drastic shit.

My ex girlfriend had an insane freak accident last month. was in a coma for 6 days. suffered severe injuries to the brain. like a miracle she has been healing, and will be fine in a few months.
when she left me, it was like i could breathe again after almost three years. but then a little while later after she left... i started to realize why i stayed with her so long, and what it was about her that i cannot ever find again.
of course we were in touch, and just as i was about to tell her listen, i cant believe i let you go so far away from me. come back and lets do this - she has the accident and is gone. fuck.
two days ago, i talked to her. she is liberated, and rid of the madness that is now all being associated with me. what the fuck man. for three years i loved this woman, and all i wanted was for her to be free. now that she is free... she wants to have nothing to do with me. so that is just great.
it's fine. i am just so unbelievably happy that she is alive. i am so fucking happy that she is alive, and even happier to know that she is finally free of the madness, even if it means the madness is me.

Moving on quickly before i start getting upset... we had an anti valentines day hang at my place and got super trashed. Doggie burnt my left wrist with her cigarette, and the next morning i saw that the scar looks like a little pink heart. hehehe.

A few weeks ago the gangster brothers threw a party and it was the most insane dramatic experience ever. I honestly thought I'd have an anxiety attack. so i get there and obviously within the first 20 minutes or so, we are totally fucking drunk and stoned out of our minds with shots of godknowswhat and bloody connecticut weed that is so damn strong. doggie arrives with entourage of chicks, one of them being Grape Cigar. After this, i am talking to a hot girl i had class with two years ago who usually flirts with me when we run into each other at starbucks and says we should hang out, but we never have until this very party. so im like talking to her and fucking Cherry comes up to me, and is like can you please act more girlfriendy.
so im like bhenchod what the fuck is that supposed to mean. then for a good hour of the party Cherry is like harassing me to bloody make out with her, because her ex boyfriend is at the party and she wants to feel wanted.
and then suddenly im in a room alone with her having this huge argument about how i am totally not cool with this exhibitionist disgusting male pleasuring awkward AWKWARD situation and i DONT want to make out with her. she obviously doesnt get it, or pretends not to, and starts getting morally offended and hurt and pissed off and is storming off here and there throwing A HUGE TANTRUM ALL OVER THE PLACE.

god. kinky fucking people. i cant stand it. but yeah so i made out with her, and then she was just soooo all over the place. it was horrible. i had to leave. added to this whole situation was Doggies drama, which i will spare even though it added to my drama, ten fold.

in other news, which isnt really news i suppose but... doggie and i have been drinking and smoking since last tuesday, and it is now thursday night. beginning to think that something is very wrong with us. there is something we are all running from. well i know what im running from. but its okay and everything is super under control. yes.

i smoked a doobie in the afternoon yesterday and sat on the steps of a busy designer store infested kind of street, where all the gucci girls walk up and down with huge sunglasses and shit. it was a lot of fun watching people just walk by. this is where i saw a woman walk by alone, and i just couldnt take my eyes off her. she could be in her late 30s, auburn deep brown hair and eyes... beautiful grace... she walked on her own down the street past me and away... no ipod no cellphone... but she had this incredible smile on her face. an incredibly real and genuine beautiful smile in the sunlight man it was so nice. it was sooooo nice. she even looked down as she walked, and kind of bit her lip while smiling some more. i looked at her until i couldnt see her anymore because i just couldnt stop, and she was just smiling man. fuck. it was so fucking nice. she didnt look at me or anyone or anything else. she was just in her own world, smiling. totally made my day.

randomly, i miss sherbet gula. but she is a busy straight girl who only grants me webcam glimpses of her once in a while.

my city and its queer scene is disgusting, and i have never seen so many fucking baseball caps in a club before.

lastly, i went to an esperanza spalding concert, and that woman is the bomb. fuck man, her rendition of wild is the wind was fucking haunting. she plays upright bass and sings, and dudeee it is so damn hot. i honestly recommend that everyone check her out right now. at least the jazz nerds need to check her out right now.



- birdieeeee